Bakit ganun? Dati ang dami dami kong nagagawa para lang hindi ma-bored. Ngayon para bang kulang na lang magpakamatay ako sa sobrang bored ko. Hmm, ano kaya nangyayari sakin? ;A; Siguro kasi dati nagsusulat ako ng stories. Ngayon ewan ko ba, wala na ako sa world of fantasies. :’( Sad naman. Try ko kaya mag-sulat kahit prose lang.
Boring ampota.
Hey there sis. :)
I congratulate my sister from graduating yesterday at SMX Convention Center. There were lots of times where I was on the verge of tears. It was a different kind of feeling even though it wasn’t me who graduated, I felt the hardships they went to just to be on that stage and received their diplomas. I am so proud of my sister. I was a witness to the problems she encountered before she graduated. And I am thankful and proud because despite all that, she was able to conquer it all and graduated with her head held high.
Now it is only me studying. I want to graduate too and give honor to my parents. I hope I can be Cum Laude or even higher than that, so that I’ll be able to let my parents experience going up on stage and putting medal on their child. I was able to do that back in Elementary. :))
So I will do my best! I will study hard and achieve my dreams.
Coming to the point of having enough. Giving up. Finally accepting the reality. It is me who is at fault for still holding on to this friendship and different kind of treatment you are giving me. It is not right to be friends with you when you know I have feelings for you. You are taking advantage of my feelings for you. You know I won’t be able to resist you, and I don’t blame you. I don’t. I don’t hate you, but I hate myself for giving you the opportunity to use me.
But boy I’ve had enough. I know you don’t love me. I know and clearly told me that I have no chance in you. So I decided to let you go of you, FINALLY. I hope you will respect my decision and let me go too. I decided not to talk to you anymore. Not to see you. Not to hear your voice. Hold you. It may be hard for me to do this, oh yes it is, but I know I can do this. I don’t want to be stupid anymore. I don’t want to be used anymore.
I just want you to know that I don’t hate you. I never did and never will I. I hope you can find happiness with someone whom you think deserves you. I love you and I don’t know if I will love another but you are the first guy that made me feel this way. I am thankful to you. I do not regret meeting you. I am happy that I met you.
Hindi naman kita kakausapin kahit online ka sa chat kaya wag ka ng mag invisible sakin kasi mas gusto kong nakikita kitang online. Hindi din kita ite-text kasi alam kong di mo ko rereplyan sayang lang yung load ko kahit unli ako.
Huwag kang mag-alala, kasi hinding hindi kita kakausapin kahit na gusto ko, hanggat di mo ako kinaka-usap.
